i’m the only one awake between dusk and dawn. i see the faint moonlight caressin… the low sunlight in such a way, that they seem to speak through on…

always been taught to prioritize other people’s pain over my own trained selfish if i speak about myself at… supposed to normalize anger

same old patterns, willing to give my love away. but what’s the shame in that? yes it hurts - never quite reciprocated -

my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable

i crave your touch trace my bones caress my skin hold me close never let me go

there is a creature that is living inside of me– a parasite that feeds on hatred and pain. i promise it isn’t my fault.

i want it to work so badly but i don’t think it ever will unfortunately i am putting too much effort in once again

i have been trying so hard to heal stuck in the past, despite my effo… life in the sun felt so good i only wish that i could have stay… wandering aimlessly now that i was

i hope that every time that you see this shade of green it drives you mad i hope that every time that you hear a laugh like mine

i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…

i love you more than i ever though… you fell into my life when i didn’t expect a thing you fell into my life when i needed you most

i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming

if i died in my room, whether it were an accident or int… how long would it take for you to… everything is about you, you, you so where does that leave me?

it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting

jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore