my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable

i want it to work so badly but i don’t think it ever will unfortunately i am putting too much effort in once again

i’m always repressing my urges to scream to bash my head into the wall to cry in the shower set to its ho… i hope one day they realize

i wonder if i cross your mind i wonder of thoughts of me creep u… and whisper in your ear i wonder if you take a second glan… at my name when i call

i have been trying so hard to heal stuck in the past, despite my effo… life in the sun felt so good i only wish that i could have stay… wandering aimlessly now that i was

it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting

always been taught to prioritize other people’s pain over my own trained selfish if i speak about myself at… supposed to normalize anger

i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…

people have hurt me. taken advantage and made me feel unsafe. you have never harmed me, so why does it bother me so much

i crave your touch trace my bones caress my skin hold me close never let me go

i’m the only one awake between dusk and dawn. i see the faint moonlight caressin… the low sunlight in such a way, that they seem to speak through on…

tear me limb from limb turn me to dust my life impacts no one why do i exist? i am disappointing

i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming

jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore

i love you more than i ever though… you fell into my life when i didn’t expect a thing you fell into my life when i needed you most