i have been trying so hard to heal stuck in the past, despite my effo… life in the sun felt so good i only wish that i could have stay… wandering aimlessly now that i was

i hope that every time that you see this shade of green it drives you mad i hope that every time that you hear a laugh like mine

i want it to work so badly but i don’t think it ever will unfortunately i am putting too much effort in once again

i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…

if i died in my room, whether it were an accident or int… how long would it take for you to… everything is about you, you, you so where does that leave me?

it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting

jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore

people have hurt me. taken advantage and made me feel unsafe. you have never harmed me, so why does it bother me so much

i feel... “okay” really that means i’ve been dissoc… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,

same old patterns, willing to give my love away. but what’s the shame in that? yes it hurts - never quite reciprocated -

i wonder if i cross your mind i wonder of thoughts of me creep u… and whisper in your ear i wonder if you take a second glan… at my name when i call

i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming

i’m the only one awake between dusk and dawn. i see the faint moonlight caressin… the low sunlight in such a way, that they seem to speak through on…

i crave your touch trace my bones caress my skin hold me close never let me go

there is a creature that is living inside of me– a parasite that feeds on hatred and pain. i promise it isn’t my fault.