i cannot rest my heavy eyes due to… and no matter how hard i try and t… you’re always there laughing as if you belong if only you’d visit me in the fles…

same old patterns, willing to give my love away. but what’s the shame in that? yes it hurts - never quite reciprocated -

it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting

i’m the only one awake between dusk and dawn. i see the faint moonlight caressin… the low sunlight in such a way, that they seem to speak through on…

if i died in my room, whether it were an accident or int… how long would it take for you to… everything is about you, you, you so where does that leave me?

tear me limb from limb turn me to dust my life impacts no one why do i exist? i am disappointing

people have hurt me. taken advantage and made me feel unsafe. you have never harmed me, so why does it bother me so much

i’m always repressing my urges to scream to bash my head into the wall to cry in the shower set to its ho… i hope one day they realize

i feel... “okay” really that means i’ve been dissoc… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,

i want it to work so badly but i don’t think it ever will unfortunately i am putting too much effort in once again

i love you more than i ever though… you fell into my life when i didn’t expect a thing you fell into my life when i needed you most

jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore

there is a creature that is living inside of me– a parasite that feeds on hatred and pain. i promise it isn’t my fault.

my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable

i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…