i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming

jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore

same old patterns, willing to give my love away. but what’s the shame in that? yes it hurts - never quite reciprocated -

i cannot rest my heavy eyes due to… and no matter how hard i try and t… you’re always there laughing as if you belong if only you’d visit me in the fles…

i feel... “okay” really that means i’ve been dissoc… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,

tear me limb from limb turn me to dust my life impacts no one why do i exist? i am disappointing

always been taught to prioritize other people’s pain over my own trained selfish if i speak about myself at… supposed to normalize anger

my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable

people have hurt me. taken advantage and made me feel unsafe. you have never harmed me, so why does it bother me so much

i’m the only one awake between dusk and dawn. i see the faint moonlight caressin… the low sunlight in such a way, that they seem to speak through on…

i wonder if i cross your mind i wonder of thoughts of me creep u… and whisper in your ear i wonder if you take a second glan… at my name when i call

i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…

i’m always repressing my urges to scream to bash my head into the wall to cry in the shower set to its ho… i hope one day they realize

i love you more than i ever though… you fell into my life when i didn’t expect a thing you fell into my life when i needed you most

i hope that every time that you see this shade of green it drives you mad i hope that every time that you hear a laugh like mine