if i died in my room, whether it were an accident or int… how long would it take for you to… everything is about you, you, you so where does that leave me?

jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore

i crave your touch trace my bones caress my skin hold me close never let me go

i wonder if i cross your mind i wonder of thoughts of me creep u… and whisper in your ear i wonder if you take a second glan… at my name when i call

i love you more than i ever though… you fell into my life when i didn’t expect a thing you fell into my life when i needed you most

i feel... “okay” really that means i’ve been dissoc… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,

i’m always repressing my urges to scream to bash my head into the wall to cry in the shower set to its ho… i hope one day they realize

i want it to work so badly but i don’t think it ever will unfortunately i am putting too much effort in once again

i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…

i cannot rest my heavy eyes due to… and no matter how hard i try and t… you’re always there laughing as if you belong if only you’d visit me in the fles…

same old patterns, willing to give my love away. but what’s the shame in that? yes it hurts - never quite reciprocated -

people have hurt me. taken advantage and made me feel unsafe. you have never harmed me, so why does it bother me so much

i hope that every time that you see this shade of green it drives you mad i hope that every time that you hear a laugh like mine

always been taught to prioritize other people’s pain over my own trained selfish if i speak about myself at… supposed to normalize anger

my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable