always been taught to prioritize other people’s pain over my own trained selfish if i speak about myself at… supposed to normalize anger

i want it to work so badly but i don’t think it ever will unfortunately i am putting too much effort in once again

i wonder if i cross your mind i wonder of thoughts of me creep u… and whisper in your ear i wonder if you take a second glan… at my name when i call

there is a creature that is living inside of me– a parasite that feeds on hatred and pain. i promise it isn’t my fault.

my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable

i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming

i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…

i’m always repressing my urges to scream to bash my head into the wall to cry in the shower set to its ho… i hope one day they realize

i cannot rest my heavy eyes due to… and no matter how hard i try and t… you’re always there laughing as if you belong if only you’d visit me in the fles…

i have been trying so hard to heal stuck in the past, despite my effo… life in the sun felt so good i only wish that i could have stay… wandering aimlessly now that i was

jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore

it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting

people have hurt me. taken advantage and made me feel unsafe. you have never harmed me, so why does it bother me so much

if i died in my room, whether it were an accident or int… how long would it take for you to… everything is about you, you, you so where does that leave me?

i hope that every time that you see this shade of green it drives you mad i hope that every time that you hear a laugh like mine