it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting

same old patterns, willing to give my love away. but what’s the shame in that? yes it hurts - never quite reciprocated -

tear me limb from limb turn me to dust my life impacts no one why do i exist? i am disappointing

i’m the only one awake between dusk and dawn. i see the faint moonlight caressin… the low sunlight in such a way, that they seem to speak through on…

i crave your touch trace my bones caress my skin hold me close never let me go

i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming

i hope that every time that you see this shade of green it drives you mad i hope that every time that you hear a laugh like mine

i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…

i feel... “okay” really that means i’ve been dissoc… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,

i cannot rest my heavy eyes due to… and no matter how hard i try and t… you’re always there laughing as if you belong if only you’d visit me in the fles…

i want it to work so badly but i don’t think it ever will unfortunately i am putting too much effort in once again

i love you more than i ever though… you fell into my life when i didn’t expect a thing you fell into my life when i needed you most

i have been trying so hard to heal stuck in the past, despite my effo… life in the sun felt so good i only wish that i could have stay… wandering aimlessly now that i was

jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore

there is a creature that is living inside of me– a parasite that feeds on hatred and pain. i promise it isn’t my fault.