i’m the only one awake between dusk and dawn. i see the faint moonlight caressin… the low sunlight in such a way, that they seem to speak through on…

i want it to work so badly but i don’t think it ever will unfortunately i am putting too much effort in once again

i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming

same old patterns, willing to give my love away. but what’s the shame in that? yes it hurts - never quite reciprocated -

my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable

there is a creature that is living inside of me– a parasite that feeds on hatred and pain. i promise it isn’t my fault.

it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting

i wonder if i cross your mind i wonder of thoughts of me creep u… and whisper in your ear i wonder if you take a second glan… at my name when i call

i crave your touch trace my bones caress my skin hold me close never let me go

tear me limb from limb turn me to dust my life impacts no one why do i exist? i am disappointing

i love you more than i ever though… you fell into my life when i didn’t expect a thing you fell into my life when i needed you most

i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…

i cannot rest my heavy eyes due to… and no matter how hard i try and t… you’re always there laughing as if you belong if only you’d visit me in the fles…

jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore

i hope that every time that you see this shade of green it drives you mad i hope that every time that you hear a laugh like mine