i feel... “okay” really that means i’ve been dissoc… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,

tear me limb from limb turn me to dust my life impacts no one why do i exist? i am disappointing

i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…

i’m always repressing my urges to scream to bash my head into the wall to cry in the shower set to its ho… i hope one day they realize

i hope that every time that you see this shade of green it drives you mad i hope that every time that you hear a laugh like mine

i have been trying so hard to heal stuck in the past, despite my effo… life in the sun felt so good i only wish that i could have stay… wandering aimlessly now that i was

it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting

my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable

i crave your touch trace my bones caress my skin hold me close never let me go

i’m the only one awake between dusk and dawn. i see the faint moonlight caressin… the low sunlight in such a way, that they seem to speak through on…

jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore

i cannot rest my heavy eyes due to… and no matter how hard i try and t… you’re always there laughing as if you belong if only you’d visit me in the fles…

i want it to work so badly but i don’t think it ever will unfortunately i am putting too much effort in once again

i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming

there is a creature that is living inside of me– a parasite that feeds on hatred and pain. i promise it isn’t my fault.