i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming

people have hurt me. taken advantage and made me feel unsafe. you have never harmed me, so why does it bother me so much

there is a creature that is living inside of me– a parasite that feeds on hatred and pain. i promise it isn’t my fault.

i want it to work so badly but i don’t think it ever will unfortunately i am putting too much effort in once again

i’m the only one awake between dusk and dawn. i see the faint moonlight caressin… the low sunlight in such a way, that they seem to speak through on…

same old patterns, willing to give my love away. but what’s the shame in that? yes it hurts - never quite reciprocated -

jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore

i hope that every time that you see this shade of green it drives you mad i hope that every time that you hear a laugh like mine

it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting

i feel... “okay” really that means i’ve been dissoc… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,

always been taught to prioritize other people’s pain over my own trained selfish if i speak about myself at… supposed to normalize anger

my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable

i love you more than i ever though… you fell into my life when i didn’t expect a thing you fell into my life when i needed you most

i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…

i wonder if i cross your mind i wonder of thoughts of me creep u… and whisper in your ear i wonder if you take a second glan… at my name when i call