8:40 pm
i want it to work so badly but i don’t think it ever will unfortunately i am putting too much effort in once again
i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming
i crave your touch trace my bones caress my skin hold me close never let me go
people have hurt me. taken advantage and made me feel unsafe. you have never harmed me, so why does it bother me so much
i cannot rest my heavy eyes due to… and no matter how hard i try and t… you’re always there laughing as if you belong if only you’d visit me in the fles…
i’m the only one awake between dusk and dawn. i see the faint moonlight caressin… the low sunlight in such a way, that they seem to speak through on…
always been taught to prioritize other people’s pain over my own trained selfish if i speak about myself at… supposed to normalize anger
it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting
my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable
i wonder if i cross your mind i wonder of thoughts of me creep u… and whisper in your ear i wonder if you take a second glan… at my name when i call
i feel... “okay” really that means i’ve been dissoc… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,
i have been trying so hard to heal stuck in the past, despite my effo… life in the sun felt so good i only wish that i could have stay… wandering aimlessly now that i was
i love you more than i ever though… you fell into my life when i didn’t expect a thing you fell into my life when i needed you most
there is a creature that is living inside of me– a parasite that feeds on hatred and pain. i promise it isn’t my fault.
i hope that every time that you see this shade of green it drives you mad i hope that every time that you hear a laugh like mine