i’m always repressing my urges to scream to bash my head into the wall to cry in the shower set to its ho… i hope one day they realize

i love you more than i ever though… you fell into my life when i didn’t expect a thing you fell into my life when i needed you most

i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming

if i died in my room, whether it were an accident or int… how long would it take for you to… everything is about you, you, you so where does that leave me?

i want it to work so badly but i don’t think it ever will unfortunately i am putting too much effort in once again

my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable

same old patterns, willing to give my love away. but what’s the shame in that? yes it hurts - never quite reciprocated -

always been taught to prioritize other people’s pain over my own trained selfish if i speak about myself at… supposed to normalize anger

it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting

i wonder if i cross your mind i wonder of thoughts of me creep u… and whisper in your ear i wonder if you take a second glan… at my name when i call

tear me limb from limb turn me to dust my life impacts no one why do i exist? i am disappointing

there is a creature that is living inside of me– a parasite that feeds on hatred and pain. i promise it isn’t my fault.

people have hurt me. taken advantage and made me feel unsafe. you have never harmed me, so why does it bother me so much

i feel... “okay” really that means i’ve been dissoc… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,

i hope that every time that you see this shade of green it drives you mad i hope that every time that you hear a laugh like mine