jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore

i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming

if i died in my room, whether it were an accident or int… how long would it take for you to… everything is about you, you, you so where does that leave me?

i feel... “okay” really that means i’ve been dissoc… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,

my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable

i have been trying so hard to heal stuck in the past, despite my effo… life in the sun felt so good i only wish that i could have stay… wandering aimlessly now that i was

always been taught to prioritize other people’s pain over my own trained selfish if i speak about myself at… supposed to normalize anger

same old patterns, willing to give my love away. but what’s the shame in that? yes it hurts - never quite reciprocated -

i crave your touch trace my bones caress my skin hold me close never let me go

i’m the only one awake between dusk and dawn. i see the faint moonlight caressin… the low sunlight in such a way, that they seem to speak through on…

i wonder if i cross your mind i wonder of thoughts of me creep u… and whisper in your ear i wonder if you take a second glan… at my name when i call

there is a creature that is living inside of me– a parasite that feeds on hatred and pain. i promise it isn’t my fault.

i love you more than i ever though… you fell into my life when i didn’t expect a thing you fell into my life when i needed you most

i cannot rest my heavy eyes due to… and no matter how hard i try and t… you’re always there laughing as if you belong if only you’d visit me in the fles…

i hope that every time that you see this shade of green it drives you mad i hope that every time that you hear a laugh like mine