To my father
(2013)
I cried again today, and I did not die. I even know why it is I cried today. Because the truth
I saw him for the first time ever; the one who stole my soul away. He appeared in a dream. I had never seem him before, yet no doubt it was him.
I am that scruffy urchin trembling in the winter chill, with hungry eyes as wide as your fancy dinner plate, staring with an empty longing
Who of you will follow where I’m bound to go? None that I can see. None that I can name. No-one that I know.
Seems no way out, but deep within. There’s a resonant voice calling from the depths of my being; I am not what you imagine me to be…
It is me. I am stripped down to my most naked intentions; having worn so many coats and less than noble guises.
I humbly bow before your tender me… for no other reason than I’m sorry… As I listen to my old pal, Leonar… crooning out his holy tunes, there’s a message sounding clear
I’ve howled and raved and ranted at all those whom I could name, in search of peace and freedom from this ancient seething rage. But still there lingers bitter bil…
These words I cry do not come easily; as if they echo from the cold stone depths of a long forgotten tomb.
The storm is brewing. I smell it in the air. I am panicking. I fear this tempest might cost my life.
God has spoken. I have been listening, the message is clear. The psalm itself is silent, if the psalmist’s voice falls stil…
Almost silent, A numbing hum. It is a cold cloudless night. A brilliant bone-white moon hovers amidst stars upon stars upon stars…
I stared at her like she was a painting, as if I had all day and night to drink in every curve and contour
I was seven years old. I approached the priest in earnest… “I want to take the lord Jesus in… He instructed me to kneel and pray… A week passed.
It seems the only way to reach the mountain-top, is through the desert wasteland. It is only there that one might come to learn