You ruined me. How could you? You’re my mother. You were supposed to be strong. Not me.

It’s like waking up from your best… To find that it’s all gone. When you love someone who isn’t re… And you say, “I’m done.” It’s like swimming in Heaven,

I love John. I love when he cries. When he looks at me, I fly.

I was born of the Virgin Mary, Given life to rid earth of evil. Blood on my hands, Dirt on my hands, I’m akin with Christ Himself.

Mom, I miss you, And I’m miserable. I miss grandma, And I’m so lonely. I miss being a kid.

Am I incurable? It seems so. I’m an incorrigible invalid Of the heart.

I could hop on a train. Grow akin to the screaming and whi… Where would I go? Far from here, from cold. Tell my parents my love,

She looked like innocence And felt like sin And died like grace And fell like a bird And fell like a bird

I’m falling apart beneath my smile… I grapple blindly for a rope To save myself from rising waters. I come up, lungs full of despair, And my parents cover my mouth

Splattered you All over my body And flecks of skin Inside every crevice. I can’t get rid of you

I wish I wish I wish I could swim in oblivion. Have a tummy full of pills.

Mark, I miss you, And I love you. Each day is lost Without you.

Don’t cry Don’t cry Don’t cry Because it’s your birthday.

You’re horrible, And I hate you. But this is me. I’m the only person That I can’t escape.

While you were gone, My childhood dog died. I wept for both of you, And I felt like a corpse. While you were gone,