June 16th, 2023 A viscous cycle
Do not assume these words of hurt Are directed at you I have bared to you my heart and s… Yet our words remained withheld Do not assume these words of pain
It would be easier If I could hate you If you had so utterly decimated me That I couldn’t stand again It would be easier
I mourn not for what we had, I mourn for a future lost. A foundation laid of promises, Promises that now seem so easily b… I cry not for this loneliness,
You were the light of my life So tell me why You decided to burn it to cinders And leave me in darkness
In the depths of heartbreak’s icy… Where tears flow freely, leaving t… A soul finds solace in longing’s b… Aching for a love it hopes to rega… The echoes of laughter, once share…
To Love is to abandon All rational and logic To act out of character And find depth within yourself To love is to put your wants
What I mistook for your warmth I now realize was actually a freez… You found me, built me up Then destroyed me You claim to care about me
Do not mistake my silence, For absence. I will always be there for you. Always. But I must be here for myself,
Adrift in the abyss Dappled with distant lights Imagination connects the dots To make sense of this predicament I was anchored on the satellite
Because you brighten my day Even when the sun’s shining When I’m feeling down & fret You’re my silver lining Your warmth is like a buffet
I wish that these words No longer reflect my pain But my devotion
If you told me To lay down my arms I would raise my shields Yet I surrender If you warned me
My vision clouds with these tears Tears made from our memories Maybe one day the they will stop Or I won’t feel them anymore
One day I hope your love Will reunite with mine Or so I tell myself because It won’t
My self deprecation Are humbling jokes As to starve my ego Not a reflection of self hatred My sense of self