June 16th, 2023 A viscous cycle
Do not mistake my silence, For absence. I will always be there for you. Always. But I must be here for myself,
Like a tower of crystal glasses My hope stacks higher Waiting to come crashing down And lacerate my heart below A thousand tiny shards
Rain & sun Flowers bloom Spring has sprung Fading the gloom In summers heat
I cut this final cord. So why do I still feel bound? Oh, another cord.
Adrift in the abyss Dappled with distant lights Imagination connects the dots To make sense of this predicament I was anchored on the satellite
When we met You found me At my worst When we loved Time stood still
It would be easier If I could hate you If you had so utterly decimated me That I couldn’t stand again It would be easier
As the waves crash along the shore Which seems so far away, I ask myself; Why do I swim? Pushed from a ship
To Love is to abandon All rational and logic To act out of character And find depth within yourself To love is to put your wants
I pray you don’t find These words of pain from my heart I’m broken right now
Most people drain me But you are not most people You recharge my soul
What I mistook for your warmth I now realize was actually a freez… You found me, built me up Then destroyed me You claim to care about me
I want to walk away I want this hope to stay I’m twisted and torn My promise, I’m sworn To see you again someday
With words left unspoken These promises broken Are washed away by These emotions awoken Forgive the sinner
My self deprecation Are humbling jokes As to starve my ego Not a reflection of self hatred My sense of self