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Too long trapped Hopeless and caged Owned and enraged I saw a way out Extinguished my apathy
I don’t know if you read these things But if you do I’ll take your silence as a
I never told you a lie I was honest from the start You knew about my wife You knew who I was You accepted the facts
Driven too long with out coolant With out lubricant, my wife Blew the head gasket on the old Buick century. Now lifeless on the flatbed. Wait…
I can no longer trust my mind not to betray me, and devour me To bury me with thoughts of insecu… Was it love was it something else
I broke something beautiful I had prior commitments I was not free to live out that fantasy
Hope is so elusive It just won’t come near Hopelessness and foolishness Grasping to things that just aren’… I can’t seem to find freedom
Our love cost you dear It cost you all A price I would have willingly pa… Though that cost Sadly landed on you
One more meeting Just one more Rendezvous And the courage To speak up
I love your grace Always seeing beyond The ruins left In the wake of sin I love your strength
You made me young Took away all my excuses You brought me to life Demolished ever inhibition You taught me to love
Whether moth to flame Or drawn in like fly to shit You captivate me
You are a pain I can’t put out of… You are an ache I can’t cease to… The momentary joy worth limitless… Knowing the pain that was before m… I chose to embrace that momentary…
Today is the last day I am going to do this to myself The last day I will hold on to any hope Today is the last day
I didn’t know what it was like to… then you showed me what it was lik… I didn’t know what it was like to… Then you came along and accepted m… I didn’t know I could feel so dee…