To have kept you Would have cost me Nothing To have lost you

The battle rages on Leaves me weary Restless and weak But at This moment

I want you Out of my head Out of my heart I want your memory To leave me be

There are so many things I’d like to say to you But when I see your face My mind just goes blank I’m terrified

You’re still My favorite person A thing Impervious to change Your memory

I never told you a lie I was honest from the start You knew about my wife You knew who I was You accepted the facts

Letting go Is not a choice That I can just make There are no simple steps I can mechanically perform

I have been proud I have considered myself wise I have thought that I was Far above The failures of others

You were more Than yourself For me You were A reason

The cherry red tip of ash falls from her cigarette to make love with a dry autumn leaf and set the forest ablaze.