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Wondering about the state of my relationship. Supposing the two of us are only together because neither of us wants to be alone , & if so why bother paying homage to the illusion of love if our hearts aren't in it.
My love haunted My hope hunted All I ever wanted Was to be wanted Waiting for your call
Another yr older Throwing wind into the fodder Picking myself apart Stumbling in the dark Trying to find a piece of who I u…
Dripping like honey Off your tongue Everything’s funny When I’m in your arms Running
Crazy like the weather You blow me away like a feather Trying to convey my soul spark Laughing at me in winters stark Picking me apart
You write me Like lyrics to a song My head spins round My heart feels numb With my finger on repeat
Upset I can’t control The outset Jealous Carefully meandering
Reaching in the frigid cold Searching for a hand to hold To give me hope To give me strength In the hallows of my mind
The organs played As I began to fray Sitting in a state Of being perpetual irate Supposing death a suiting thing
You gave me a promise I relied everything on you In time you let me down You distort my love for you Into a ravenous wolf, a clown
Head burning Heart yearning Brain churning Feet running Into the unknown
Stargazing from within Acknowledging the end I gave myself away To allow what may Standing in my way
Knowing how to feel What more is there to know? Knowing how to entertain What must I do to ascertain The feeble heart?
I never thought I’d be the one to… Over all the stupid lies Streaming from your hollow eyes Into shady alibis Thinking I must be a fool
Floating in a wave of obscurity My heart is a world of secrecy Giving my hopes to the wind Relinquishing my dreams for clarit… I never meant to hurt you
Twirling in a dizzying array of wo… Held captive to the orchestra of t… When the icy breath of winter appr… My dismay is irreproachable Sleeping in the arms of slumber