(2014)
I struggle to Keep it together Maxims and mottoes On repeat In my mind
I cannot divide My heart Into four pieces Equally Geometrically
It’s not that I’m sad Though I am It’s not that I’m discouraged Though I am It soaks deeper
Down to earth I am but of dust Dust particles I see floating in the air Carbon molecules
Why can’t I choose to be somewhere in the middle? Surrounded by extremes Measure everything With a grain of salt
I will be Forever in debt To my mother Any gift Would come up short
Would I rather be A younger me? More productive Stronger Would i have to give up
An idea In my head Falls flat On paper Read it
When the emotion comes up It feels like heartburn Like acid Clenching my throat My ears go watery
No pido disculpas Por escribir Lo que siento Lo que llevo adentro Lo que vivo
The strings that attach me To this world Ground me Yes they sometimes Keep me from flying
To love reading Writing and words And not be able to Communicate Frustrated
Apathy and incompetence In healthcare A fax they didn’t send Prescriptions delayed Labs to do again
Antes lograba tanto Metía horas Sacando lo máximo De cada minuto No he cambiado
The whole world Aches and groans Do you feel her pain? The human in me Wants to heal mankind