Eve's curse, por Laura Alaniz

Eve's curse

Desperate for his attention

Knowing it will drive him away

Jealous of a game - how lame

Choking self-esteem where I lay

Desperate for his affection

Knowing he will not stray

Missing him more than he does me

Pride controlling what I say

(2014)

Destruction is fun But cannot be undone Smashed Trashed Crumpled

Apathy and incompetence In healthcare A fax they didn’t send Prescriptions delayed Labs to do again

I feel like crap Most days I have a lot going my way I am loved I can smile

Good secret Bubbles inside Let me out Bad secret Indigestion

Stubbed toe Red light Ugly words Ugly mouth To shock

The pine trees Reach up On both sides Of the road Telling me

Have you ever felt A hole inside of you Something dead inside Where your heart Is supposed to be?

Restless As I lay in bed Trying to fall asleep These are my clues I might be low

She is no longer Part of my life I’ve moved on My life is full With friends

Would I rather be A younger me? More productive Stronger Would i have to give up

I had it all In my head And then I said Words I do not know which ones

This world is covered in bias It’s all over you It’s all over me too This world is covered in bias It shades our words

Does the world need Another book? Another poem? I add one more to the pile To be left alone

If I could draw a tree In all it’s complexity Would you be impressed? If I could draw a human face It would be but a trace

My pump Constant companion Of my disease My sensor Resembles a feeding