To my favorite person
(2014)
Just know that you have been lied to. By other than me.
I love your grace Always seeing beyond The ruins left In the wake of sin I love your strength
2014-12-29-23-07-15_journalx It is all too easy to be a smug pr… I don’t watch t.v. I don’t eat McDonald’s I don’t use facebook
One year ago We were nearly lovers One year ago The closest of friends One year ago
For an instant I touched it Greatness was upon me I wonder Do you know it?
2015-01-12-22-48-02 I’m on to something new Just trying to get over you What in the world am I thinking? Was it really that much?
There’s a hollow place Where your heart belongs Its vacuous emptiness Drains all compassion Consumes without satiation
If anyone but you Had told me not to talk to you They would never have succeeded I let you go Because you asked me to.
All the spaces between. All the things left unsaid. They are like the air packed into a vanilla milkshake
To have kept you Would have cost me Nothing To have lost you
Driven too long with out coolant With out lubricant, my wife Blew the head gasket on the old Buick century. Now lifeless on the flatbed. Wait…
I know That you still feel The same as I do I know That it can only
It didn’t happen all at once The stress of impact And the heat of friction Combined Has a natural result
I never told you a lie I was honest from the start You knew about my wife You knew who I was You accepted the facts
You are a pain I can’t put out of… You are an ache I can’t cease to… The momentary joy worth limitless… Knowing the pain that was before m… I chose to embrace that momentary…
Take care In how you engage the battle of who can care less. though it may