In Loving Memory Rickie Lee Hawthorne
(2014)
I wish you had told me that on the good days kissing you would make me think that I knew what happiness was and on the bad days
Loving you was never sweet like the taste of vanilla the way I thought it was supposed to be It was more like
I know that you were there in my dreams and in my arms Every dream we
Forever seems like so long until I think of all the times spent waiting
Hope in another form but no fewer letters and I’ve been hoping for these past eight years so I’ll just keep on
I was like a rain cloud over a small garden and dammit if you weren’t that garden so full of flowers that I fell in love
You were the wind beneath my wings but I was Icarus so all I did
I write sharp words with a sharper knife on page after page of what might as well be the skin of my back
There is something to be said of a true friend One who will pull the knife from your back One who will stitch the wounds
If nature were so flattered by poems written with itself in mind as people are we would be moving mountains
Everyday brings a new death in three words give or take Some days I drown
I don’t remember any anesthesia after talking with you but I woke up stitched back
I’ll keep searching for the meaning of life and I hope I find it as crumpled paper nearish a trash can
Life is an uphill struggle Nothing comes easy and only hard work pays off I don’t like hard work was my 5 word protest
So much time passes without feeling a single thing that I think I would give anything