In Loving Memory Rickie Lee Hawthorne
(2014)
I wish you had told me that on the good days kissing you would make me think that I knew what happiness was and on the bad days
I spend my nights wishing on every star in the sky that you are alive and well
Hope in another form but no fewer letters and I’ve been hoping for these past eight years so I’ll just keep on
Forever seems like so long until I think of all the times spent waiting
Everyday I lived out a song written just for you But you could
I don’t remember any anesthesia after talking with you but I woke up stitched back
The pen must be mightier than the sword For there is nothing that will spill your guts faster than a bit of ink that says
I say hello and you say nothing You may hear me you may even think of a response
You asked what I knew about you and I thought up a list of twenty things
I feel empty unceasingly until you come along and fill my heart to bursting
I see poems that need to be written scrawled in the shape of your smile and the lines of your face
Autumn sneaks in preceding dormancy Leaves take on new beauty with nothing left in them but a fa… Individually insignificant
All that I know how to do is write about death without dying and write about life
I hope this is postmarked before my death certificate is dat… but you’ll know why if it is or if it isn’t If you get this in time
There is poetry in nature better left to be spoken wordlessly by the breeze