In Loving Memory Rickie Lee Hawthorne
(2014)
Everyday I visit the only writers block I know to hone my words and wit and help them cut deeper into the skin
There is something to be said of a true friend One who will pull the knife from your back One who will stitch the wounds
You were the wind beneath my wings but I was Icarus so all I did
Forever seems like so long until I think of all the times spent waiting
I spend my nights wishing on every star in the sky that you are alive and well
If nature were so flattered by poems written with itself in mind as people are we would be moving mountains
I write sharp words with a sharper knife on page after page of what might as well be the skin of my back
My heart was paper now folded six times over to make it harder to tear I only hope that
There seems to be a drought in my… but who knows if it is the cause or the result of the war raging within me
Everyday brings a new death in three words give or take Some days I drown
I wrote this while thinking of you so I guess you could say this poem is eight years in the making
I say hello and you say nothing You may hear me you may even think of a response
I wish you had told me that on the good days kissing you would make me think that I knew what happiness was and on the bad days
I awoke from a deep sleep and knew the reason was to write I love you
I’ve kept my eyes closed most of these past eighteen years because I find it just as dark