It’s like waking up from your best… To find that it’s all gone. When you love someone who isn’t re… And you say, “I’m done.” It’s like swimming in Heaven,

That red ribbon is so wrinkled. Rouge like blood Or rushing anger Or a blaring stop sign. It’s crumpled:

While I’m alone, He’s with her. While I’m crying, He’s kissing And rolling

In my house, You don’t ask questions. The whispers from mom and dad Signal you to a hiding place. In my house,

Let my joy be a promise To my future self Who is so beautiful Even if she isn’t pretty.

Dancing inside makes me sing. Music turns winter into spring. Dancing inside lights up my world. Lyrics give me wings like birds. Dancing inside all the time.

Not as ardent as before. I’m tired. Slowing down, A tail growing heavier and longer With each day.

Sam said, “Get over it.” As if I could Just climb a tree. Sam said,

I could hop on a train. Grow akin to the screaming and whi… Where would I go? Far from here, from cold. Tell my parents my love,

Listening to you sleep, I’m in grace. Each breath a prayer. Every rustle a litany. You don’t know how loud you are

Nights of chuckling After no jokes And Dancing without nerves Become me

I live inside my head Where soft flurries spin, And there’s a rise of warm water b… I live inside my head Where spikes stick out

You’re horrible, And I hate you. But this is me. I’m the only person That I can’t escape.

Perfection is an evil reflection On what is really real. Solitude is my gratitude When I am sad. Numbness equals oneness