You don’t ask me to speak. You never expect my opinion. I was your second child In a runaway marriage. I suppose I loved you once,

I can’t cease to think about him. His bitter way only warms my heart… He frightens me and excites me. He always heightens my senses. He makes my heart hurt.

In my house, You don’t ask questions. The whispers from mom and dad Signal you to a hiding place. In my house,

With him, It’s like there were no scars. There are no sheepish looks No burning shame. There was no John

When you taste your own sweet tear… Know I’ll be there. When the night becomes a friend, Know

What you meant– What I meant When I said, “I love you.” What you meant to me Wasn’t what you said

Nights of chuckling After no jokes And Dancing without nerves Become me

While you were gone, My childhood dog died. I wept for both of you, And I felt like a corpse. While you were gone,

Without you, I feel the pain. The rain seems cold now. Thunder is only evil, And the sky is bare and pale.

You’re horrible, And I hate you. But this is me. I’m the only person That I can’t escape.

I came back from a mortal hell, But on my way home, I saw no white god, And I saw no golden spirit, And I saw no true son.

In the darkest night, A flower will grow.

If you’re happy, then I’m happy. I’ll be ok if you’re ok. I can’t die without you living. I won’t move on without you search… At night, do you think about me?

In my daydreams, I used to be an acrobat, Flying through air Into capable hands. In my dreams,

Shambles: They hold my life together. I’m shredded into slices, Trying to hold it whole, And I wonder if anyone