I find it funny That I raised myself From the cradle To the grave. I never got a chance to be a baby.

Nobody can see the darkness in me, And when I go deep, I bring a flashlight to slash thro… The dark. I once used to frolic in light,

I was born of the Virgin Mary, Given life to rid earth of evil. Blood on my hands, Dirt on my hands, I’m akin with Christ Himself.

The stars belong to both the sun And the moon Just as my heart does belong to yo… You may not see me, but I’ll be there.

I feel so lonely. I want to die. Feeling like the only one on earth… My laughter is a lie. Laugh on, laugh on.

Dignity is death.

I woke at 3 a.m., And I was scared. I thought I’d never be tired agai… But then I remembered the morning And all the joy it brings.

I lost my innocence On a king-sized sheet With four posters And the two of us. Just the two of us

The grass was dewy. You carried me on your back. I could feel your heartbeat Through your shirt. I wanted you to be mine,

Nights of chuckling After no jokes And Dancing without nerves Become me

I sing of a new carol Which starts silly giggles As a speeding blue carriage Runs merrily through the dark.

I could hop on a train. Grow akin to the screaming and whi… Where would I go? Far from here, from cold. Tell my parents my love,

Not as ardent as before. I’m tired. Slowing down, A tail growing heavier and longer With each day.

I find no release. I die. I die, Yet I’m not free. Not 'til I die.