The devil’s in my midst.

I don’t understand. I don’t understand the cruelty The darkness The fear This choking feeling.

You are the best thing Because things like that do not co… You are my moon and sun Because you make my days real. You are my best friend,

Last night, all I saw was Nancy. The way she cried when I held her… Like a fleshy cradle Around her broken heart. I saw her loving me

Sam said, “Get over it.” As if I could Just climb a tree. Sam said,

I had no right To fall in love with you. All those times I promised you That I’d never fall in love again Were lies because I fell in love…

There’s always a morning, But there’s the night, too. Every faith has a savior, But the devil always follows suit. There will be spring,

Moon up, Pants down. I said no. His body said yes.

My mother is the darkness inside m… She planted the seed That grew into brambles, And now, I can’t be loud Because she makes me so

I cannot bring myself to cry. I can’t decide if this is a curse Or a blessing.

If I should die before I wake, don’t cry, For that was what I always wanted…

I’ve been waiting For years And days And all the seconds For a warm body.

I’m falling apart beneath my smile… I grapple blindly for a rope To save myself from rising waters. I come up, lungs full of despair, And my parents cover my mouth

I love John. I love when he cries. When he looks at me, I fly.