TO BE...continued Part I
Jeff's Memorial
Jeff’s Memorial
Gathering thoughts which are washing over me like the waves of thrilling anticipation one gets making the last few feet of incline on the highest loop in the roller coaster…
knowing it can be exhilarating, scary, memory-making, adrenaline rushing power as the chair hits apex.
At that moment in time suspended between fear and surrender a choice is made in the spirit.
I choose to let go and enjoy the surrender as the fall changes from defiance of gravity to the natural thunderous descent bathed in screams of laughter and joy.
I have no reservation and have promised no second guessing
or looking back but the absolute exquisite taste of honey dripping from a shooting star is on the table..
the diamonds formed in the sand when the bolt of lightening hits, lighting a path to the edge of tomorrow but ends right where we stand….melted together into one design…
To be continued……
3-6-2014
And melted we became, filling every waking moment with awareness.
Alive. Alive. Feeling alive and all that goes with it…
the thrills, the pain, the openness to a door which when I walked through could never be closed again.
I cannot be here with the pain trapped inside so out it came…and died.
Died the death of a dandelion seed,
riding the wind wherever it pleased….
shot like an arrow from the blind,
never suspecting the target it would find.
Deep, deep inside of me, I met the mirror of my imagery.
One who could hear and understand
the special language of this foreign land.
Set to music and bathed in tears,
rose petals, floating on waves from the pier.
Dolphins dancing and leading the parade
of hearts conjoined to a special place.
A special place where no one can go
unless they’ve been dipped in diamond dust from a mighty blow.
A blow that is crushing like the sound of the waves, taking love with it to a celestial grave…
one where lights and stars abide, one where nothing and no one can hide.
A place where the thunder and lightening stream into rainbows and sunrises
and into lover’s dreams.
A place where once there was nothing to fear
and now it comes rushing as you hear…the sound of a shadow, dense cold and stark,
rolling like a freight train through the dark…
piercing the light is not possible you know…
darkness is swallowed by the glow…
remember the diamond dust created by thrust,
in the darkness it sparkles lighting the way.
The light reflected in the mirror of my imagery…
turned out to be me…just learning to be.
Being and feeling with a heart so alive it’s edges have blurred and spread throughout…
the breast and the arms and the body at rest.
It’s beating can be heard in the heavens above..
the vibrations felt by the farthest star….
love never ending inside of me…
love never ending
just let it be.
(2014)
