(2015)
It’s been 14 years Since we’ve spoken 14 years In which I’ve tried to Bury my regrets
All the spaces between. All the things left unsaid. They are like the air packed into a vanilla milkshake
2014-12-29-23-07-15_journalx It is all too easy to be a smug pr… I don’t watch t.v. I don’t eat McDonald’s I don’t use facebook
Nothing to see in your Reflection The only life you possess Is what you Devour
Take care In how you engage the battle of who can care less. though it may
Does it really matter Whose fault it was What’s been done Can’t be undone Anyways
You drew me too deep inside.Only to cast me away. Playing
I can no longer trust my mind not to betray me, and devour me To bury me with thoughts of insecu… Was it love was it something else
Life is right judgement Wisdom divides great from small Wrongness has no life
There are so many things I’d like to say to you But when I see your face My mind just goes blank I’m terrified
I love your grace Always seeing beyond The ruins left In the wake of sin I love your strength
I want you Out of my head Out of my heart I want your memory To leave me be
I want to have it all A full meal with all the flavors Of the single morsel You fed me
Never again Will I be the means Used to deal my love an injury Never again
You are a pain I can’t put out of… You are an ache I can’t cease to… The momentary joy worth limitless… Knowing the pain that was before m… I chose to embrace that momentary…