jotting down my thoughts trying to make sense of it all shaking hands stiff fingers i cannot even self soothe anymore

it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting

i’m the only one awake between dusk and dawn. i see the faint moonlight caressin… the low sunlight in such a way, that they seem to speak through on…

i want it to work so badly but i don’t think it ever will unfortunately i am putting too much effort in once again

my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable

i crave your touch trace my bones caress my skin hold me close never let me go

people have hurt me. taken advantage and made me feel unsafe. you have never harmed me, so why does it bother me so much

i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming

i wonder if i cross your mind i wonder of thoughts of me creep u… and whisper in your ear i wonder if you take a second glan… at my name when i call

if i died in my room, whether it were an accident or int… how long would it take for you to… everything is about you, you, you so where does that leave me?

same old patterns, willing to give my love away. but what’s the shame in that? yes it hurts - never quite reciprocated -

i cannot rest my heavy eyes due to… and no matter how hard i try and t… you’re always there laughing as if you belong if only you’d visit me in the fles…

tear me limb from limb turn me to dust my life impacts no one why do i exist? i am disappointing

i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…

i hope that every time that you see this shade of green it drives you mad i hope that every time that you hear a laugh like mine