11:59 pm
i wonder if i cross your mind i wonder of thoughts of me creep u… and whisper in your ear i wonder if you take a second glan… at my name when i call
i cannot rest my heavy eyes due to… and no matter how hard i try and t… you’re always there laughing as if you belong if only you’d visit me in the fles…
i love you more than i ever though… you fell into my life when i didn’t expect a thing you fell into my life when i needed you most
i want it to work so badly but i don’t think it ever will unfortunately i am putting too much effort in once again
i have weeds growing from my skin i am one with earth and still feeling unnatural i sit, water pours i am blooming
i’m the only one awake between dusk and dawn. i see the faint moonlight caressin… the low sunlight in such a way, that they seem to speak through on…
if i died in my room, whether it were an accident or int… how long would it take for you to… everything is about you, you, you so where does that leave me?
i crave your touch trace my bones caress my skin hold me close never let me go
i feel... “okay” really that means i’ve been dissoc… it means distracted it means ignoring what upsets me it means crying less,
tear me limb from limb turn me to dust my life impacts no one why do i exist? i am disappointing
there is a creature that is living inside of me– a parasite that feeds on hatred and pain. i promise it isn’t my fault.
my mind is loud tonight, i am struggling to sift through it… overwhelmed by every detail. feel like i don’t exist feel like i am replaceable
i don’t want to ruin your night i don’t want to always seem broken always bringing you sadness that y… soon you will be tired of it i am not as fun or interesting as…
it is so incredibly draining to feel so passionless. i just want to feel useful interesting
always been taught to prioritize other people’s pain over my own trained selfish if i speak about myself at… supposed to normalize anger