to just simply be
some days i honestly believe i'm going insane. it's hard to feel like i've got anything to gain as i rake through my brain, feeling inane that i always end up feeling this way again.
how i long to just simply be.
to not always be on my knees
my chest filled with unease
as i look over the vast sea
Lord, i plead for your mercy
as i sit here in worry
my heart pounding in a hurry
everything feels a little blurry
i gnaw at my skin
hoping the pain within
would cease to begin
i beg for stillness
like the blue ocean waves
that soak in the sun’s golden rays
wise oak trees that shiver
as the wind simply cruises
fallen leaves, gently floating downriver
i turn to the dark skies
as the soft heavy clouds pass by
i want to liquify
i spy with my little eye
a child passing by
looking around with beady eyes
simple innocence
i long for that blissfulness
i wish i could reset
rewind the cassette
stop breaking out in cold sweat
all i can do right now
is wait for dawn to break
as i count each hour
i sit here and scour
feeling helpless
i want to feel empowered
as the earth spins round
i’m stuck in this mound
as my heart simply
pounds
and pounds.
I miss simple innocence. To look up at the sky and just see birds passing by, to look at the grass blades as I sit under the shade. I wish the buzzing in my chest would cease to exist. I try to desist as I curl my hands up in fists. oh but this feeling persists.
