Heart pounding Palms sweating Blood pumping Mind racing Ears ringing

Twist it, Turn it Push it, Pull it Scratch it, Scrape it Drag it, Draw it Thrust it, Force it

I hate to disappoint But lately it’s all I do I haven’t put my cloths away I haven’t done my work Oh no it’s overdue

Living in a bubble An escape from reality Hidden a memory of the past How life used to be Before I knew me

I hate myself I hate my life. I hate who I’ve become I hate what I must do. I hate the world

I feel sick Headless Spinning round And Round

My life was happy and pure It seems a distant memory A lifetime away A lifetime of fear The pain I fear will never go

Anger fills inside me Burning last night’s scars I lose control I let the anger take hold of me I hit the wall

My body is crying It’s screaming your name Screaming out for help Screaming to be saved The tears dry up

I feel the panic rising an urge I can’t control. I feel the need consume me a fear I can’t break free. I feel your gentle fingers

Second guessing Second story Second secret Second promise. Second word

I close my eyes and I hear your voice. A whisper in the dark drowning me in pain. I look up at you

My tears fall freely Following the scars I seem to fin… Though you can’t You know they’re there. Hidden by a jumper

My heart beats fast, Steady and strong, I hear yours beating too. The life you live, The love you give,