(2014)
Cowardice. Seeking comfort from chemicals. Not facing what I ought to face, Terrified. “..I was blind, but now I see..”
There is no more pain, No more grief, Anger, Depression, Anxiety;
A lifetime given, To a life now taken. A love now silenced, Will be forever deafening.
Just a simple thank you. Thank you for guiding me. For always being there, waiting. Greeting me.
Emptiness. A void in his very being He tries to fill. Drugs, sex,
Take this. This gift. An escape. Ever silent, Ever painless.
The love, The hatred, Going in circles. Like a train on set tracks, Around and around.
Watching the world. Paper, Plastic, Celebrity, Religion.
The peace you brought, It was misleading. Unknowingly, You sneak up, With your hypnotic dance.
When you left, Your voice was always there. In the house, On the street. Everywhere.
The words spoken By them. Knowingly sly and spiteful. So cold. So calculated.
Dull, Worn, Scratched, And torn. An antique soul,
48 years of beautiful life, ended. 23 years of knowing you, ended. 13 years of caring for you,
Learning to swim Uncharted waters; The walls. Barriers, Built over years.
Staying afloat, I’m ripped down again. Into the deepest abyss. With notice
