For you.
(2014)
The love, The hatred, Going in circles. Like a train on set tracks, Around and around.
A lifetime given, To a life now taken. A love now silenced, Will be forever deafening.
Cowardice. Seeking comfort from chemicals. Not facing what I ought to face, Terrified. “..I was blind, but now I see..”
Staying afloat, I’m ripped down again. Into the deepest abyss. With notice
Dull, Worn, Scratched, And torn. An antique soul,
When you left, Your voice was always there. In the house, On the street. Everywhere.
48 years of beautiful life, ended. 23 years of knowing you, ended. 13 years of caring for you,
Just a simple thank you. Thank you for guiding me. For always being there, waiting. Greeting me.
Learning to swim Uncharted waters; The walls. Barriers, Built over years.
The words spoken By them. Knowingly sly and spiteful. So cold. So calculated.
Take this. This gift. An escape. Ever silent, Ever painless.
Venturing into the unknown. The mind stops, terrified. Yet; the heart pushes forward, ever curious and hopeful.
Emptiness. A void in his very being He tries to fill. Drugs, sex,
There is no more pain, No more grief, Anger, Depression, Anxiety;
Watching the world. Paper, Plastic, Celebrity, Religion.