I forget how to love When I’m gritting my teeth Because I’m a fucking hole/ Nothing’s coming out of my mouth n… Because I don’t love my mom,

Without you, I feel the pain. The rain seems cold now. Thunder is only evil, And the sky is bare and pale.

I can’t cease to think about him. His bitter way only warms my heart… He frightens me and excites me. He always heightens my senses. He makes my heart hurt.

While I’m alone, He’s with her. While I’m crying, He’s kissing And rolling

I’m falling apart beneath my smile… I grapple blindly for a rope To save myself from rising waters. I come up, lungs full of despair, And my parents cover my mouth

There’s always a morning, But there’s the night, too. Every faith has a savior, But the devil always follows suit. There will be spring,

That red ribbon is so wrinkled. Rouge like blood Or rushing anger Or a blaring stop sign. It’s crumpled:

I sing of a new carol Which starts silly giggles As a speeding blue carriage Runs merrily through the dark.

I could hop on a train. Grow akin to the screaming and whi… Where would I go? Far from here, from cold. Tell my parents my love,

Not as ardent as before. I’m tired. Slowing down, A tail growing heavier and longer With each day.

Last night, all I saw was Nancy. The way she cried when I held her… Like a fleshy cradle Around her broken heart. I saw her loving me

You’re bleeding down my legs, Tangling me up in your fingers. I want to run my nails down your b… And sigh in your ear.

But I’m still a kid Only don’t tell my dad that. He’ll say, no, you’re not a kid And you haven’t been a kid in a lo… I guess that when I cry,