Nobody wishes so Such as me To die quickly Or be mauled in Such a manner that

It’s over. It’s okay. The parting is such sorrow And relief. It hurts like a crushing force,

If flowers could cry, Would the water out-spilled Also drown them Like a sloshing grave of Wet mud?

Spring into fall, And we’ve all hit a wall. Love comes quickly. Sometimes, it grows. Summer, then rain,

I feel under-appreciated. Isn’t that vain to say? That might just be my Napoleon co…

I died on Tuesday. My soul floated up Above my milky corpse, And I smiled. I saw my family,

I forget how to love When I’m gritting my teeth Because I’m a fucking hole/ Nothing’s coming out of my mouth n… Because I don’t love my mom,

I’m falling apart beneath my smile… I grapple blindly for a rope To save myself from rising waters. I come up, lungs full of despair, And my parents cover my mouth

Dancing inside makes me sing. Music turns winter into spring. Dancing inside lights up my world. Lyrics give me wings like birds. Dancing inside all the time.

In my house, You don’t ask questions. The whispers from mom and dad Signal you to a hiding place. In my house,

A tree fell in the park last night… I didn’t hear it go. The innards smelled of peppermint, And I felt the crumbling dirt Turn into ash in my hand.

Sam said, “Get over it.” As if I could Just climb a tree. Sam said,

Like Augustus, I fear oblivion When I should pass.

I feel like I want to hurt, To show myself how beautiful this… The illusion makes me strong. I feel like I can’t get hurt, But I still hope for the pain of…