The grass was dewy. You carried me on your back. I could feel your heartbeat Through your shirt. I wanted you to be mine,

Love starts like this: We like the same books, We like the same music, We seem like a match made in high… It crumbles like this:

I forget how to love When I’m gritting my teeth Because I’m a fucking hole/ Nothing’s coming out of my mouth n… Because I don’t love my mom,

I often cajole myself Into crying, But I refrain. I know I’ll never stop.

In seventh grade, I made you a po… But I tore it up into pieces Because it wasn’t good enough. In eighth grade, I made you a poe… But I left it under my bed

Last night, all I saw was Nancy. The way she cried when I held her… Like a fleshy cradle Around her broken heart. I saw her loving me

I feel that one never stops Loving their past loved ones. The nostalgia remembers all the Times when you slept in their bed, When you first opened up,

Without you, I feel the pain. The rain seems cold now. Thunder is only evil, And the sky is bare and pale.

You’re bleeding down my legs, Tangling me up in your fingers. I want to run my nails down your b… And sigh in your ear.

I can’t cease to think about him. His bitter way only warms my heart… He frightens me and excites me. He always heightens my senses. He makes my heart hurt.

Last year seems years away. Last night seems lifetimes away. This moment seems like a dream.

Mom, I miss you, And I’m miserable. I miss grandma, And I’m so lonely. I miss being a kid.

What you meant– What I meant When I said, “I love you.” What you meant to me Wasn’t what you said

I wish I wish I wish I could swim in oblivion. Have a tummy full of pills.