You ruined me. How could you? You’re my mother. You were supposed to be strong. Not me.

I sing of a new carol Which starts silly giggles As a speeding blue carriage Runs merrily through the dark.

Never give up on love, Though I’ve died a thousand times Just waiting. And I’ve hoped in the rain. So many times

You met me in the winter When I was a petal, Something you desperately wanted t… You loved me in the summer, Underneath the palm oil trees

That red ribbon is so wrinkled. Rouge like blood Or rushing anger Or a blaring stop sign. It’s crumpled:

I could hop on a train. Grow akin to the screaming and whi… Where would I go? Far from here, from cold. Tell my parents my love,

Nobody can see the darkness in me, And when I go deep, I bring a flashlight to slash thro… The dark. I once used to frolic in light,

I’m so broken, And the glass stings were my façad… There’s nothing left to do. There’s nothing left to say. There’s no air left for me to brea…

It’s over. It’s okay. The parting is such sorrow And relief. It hurts like a crushing force,

Nobody wishes so Such as me To die quickly Or be mauled in Such a manner that

It’s so quiet. I feel soft. The winter hurts, So I burrow inside, But I forget how to

If flowers could cry, Would the water out-spilled Also drown them Like a sloshing grave of Wet mud?

Then he said, “I never said I was… Then I said, “I never asked you t… Then we kissed.

She looked like innocence And felt like sin And died like grace And fell like a bird And fell like a bird

It’s like waking up from your best… To find that it’s all gone. When you love someone who isn’t re… And you say, “I’m done.” It’s like swimming in Heaven,