I often cajole myself Into crying, But I refrain. I know I’ll never stop.

I cried out to God, And There was silence.

With him, It’s like there were no scars. There are no sheepish looks No burning shame. There was no John

The devil’s in my midst.

You don’t ask me to speak. You never expect my opinion. I was your second child In a runaway marriage. I suppose I loved you once,

The grass was dewy. You carried me on your back. I could feel your heartbeat Through your shirt. I wanted you to be mine,

Nights of chuckling After no jokes And Dancing without nerves Become me

Not as ardent as before. I’m tired. Slowing down, A tail growing heavier and longer With each day.

I remember how I cried When they cut down Our tree.

Smile your baby smile and please l… I know I love you, but haven’t yo… Twinkle and shine and don’t ever c… You warm me like a fox in a fox’s… Light of my life and you gave me t…

Love is the sickness. Love is the cure.

I cannot bring myself to cry. I can’t decide if this is a curse Or a blessing.

A tree fell in the park last night… I didn’t hear it go. The innards smelled of peppermint, And I felt the crumbling dirt Turn into ash in my hand.

Splattered you All over my body And flecks of skin Inside every crevice. I can’t get rid of you