the ballad of self inflicted misery, par Lowercasemmmmmm

Lowercasemmmmmm

the ballad of self inflicted misery

If I could tell you the story

Read you the journal of my life

Could you listen without a judgemental ear

And keep your lips pursed tight

If I could show you everything

And lay all myself out bare

Would you clasp your hand around the fist

I’m shaking in the mirror

You see, once upon a time

I was a boy with dreams and rules

But I grew up far too early

Disillusioned by the truth

Expressionless

And with a hibernating love for all around

I crawled deep inside myself

As childhood withered to the ground

And just like broken glass

Has broke free of its forced form

I’m revealed to you for who I am

And not what I was before

I’ve drawn the energy from the bones

Of the demons I once held close

As I watched them twist and fade

I knew love would lift its curse

(2013)

A poem about growth

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