I had it all In my head And then I said Words I do not know which ones

Long and slender Her every movement Deliberate and graceful Composed as She listens quietly

Have you ever felt A hole inside of you Something dead inside Where your heart Is supposed to be?

When the emotion comes up It feels like heartburn Like acid Clenching my throat My ears go watery

Traffic Irritation becomes a nightmare As the lines start to squiggle Bending in and out And the world starts its attack

I can feel it coming Decisions I can’t make Brain starts to freeze Fingers won’t work Sick of this disease

My objective is selfish Not to share or be heard To get it out and move on No one seems to hear my pain No one seems to feel my pain

Would I rather be A younger me? More productive Stronger Would i have to give up