I have a very long and complex life story with many tales of woe and many more of laughter.  I cannot dwell on the bad any longer as I may not have a lot of time to remember the fun bits and enjoy some extra ones!! :)

I have been ill since the age of 3, or so I believe.  To be honest it hasn't really hindered me.....I think being aware of your mortality  generally means you stay awake all night while you are supposed to be learnin somethin.   Bacround, meanin and application of Engineering......................

Sleep all day and hate the world.  I would love to have a teenage child and very subtly creep different routines into the day to force interaction.

My father committed suicide when I was 12 years old and left a huge emotional void in my life.

I spent many years trying to fill that void with sex drugs and good ol rock and roll!  It was a BLAST!! and I loved every second of it, good and bad!   hooooorah!!  

But time rolls on, and I really should start thinking about settling down

I have been with my partner, Richard for close to 9 years and I love him with every fibre of my being.  But being together is hard, we have had some very difficult times.  It is difficult to plan and create a life when your natural instinct is to pull away and hide to protect yourself from the pain of loss.  

I have never hidden myself from Rick, but jointly we hide ourselves from the world.

There are elements of myself and some creative outlets that I cannot share with Rick initially because i just plain ol can't explain them! But I am pretty sure when I show him this site, and he looks up my page, reads my poems he will only feel closer to me, as nobody on this planet could understand the depth of my words but him.

Travelling allows you to see a side of life you would not have been aware of had you not encountered it. I have lived in 9 countries in 7 years and visited more.  I have partied with royalty and shared secrets with shaques.  

One very simple encounter 2 years ago opened a different path in my mind and allowed me a lot more peace than i ever thought i would be able to achieve.

Anyone is capable of anything x