Memories of You
My heart is broken each day,
each time,
I visualize memories of you.
Maybe it was us at a food truck,
or concert,
Or a trip we went on,
or just us laughing in bed.
Happiness can be a twisted memento,
haunting you after it is gone.
Tears overwhelmed my senses as I lose control,
Closure provides me nothing,
Only cementing the cold permanent truth that I have lost my love.
The bar we met at,
the grocery store where we shopped,
The Farmers Market we would frequent,
All triggering a visceral emotional flood in which I’m drowning.
I’m a pretender,
I lie on the pretense that I’m ok,
What a novice attempt...
I’m spinning and spiraling,
Running to unknown places to vacate the void,
The crater of loneliness expands and explores,
Finding anything to occupy the dejected desires of my soul.
Memories of you stalk me in the shadows,
Lurking in the depths of my subconscious,
Whispering lullabies to serenate me closer,
Patiently anticipating when to grab my hand,
To walk away with me.
I wrote this poem a month or two after splitting up with my wife. I would go to places we were go together and I would start crying thinking about the memories we spent there. I got tired of crying so I thought writing about might start the healing process.
#breakuppoetry #sadboypoetry