Sooooo, laying on the table waiting to be cut open… my heart is still beating for now…
Everyday I pray that today is the day you will be mine! I know I’m not the ONLY one tugging at her heart, so my pulse drifts away just a little more…
I love her too much to see her go without me, end up worse than before I started the HEALING PROCESS of it all!!
But life isn’t fair, so whatever happens HAPPENS… I will eventually get her all to myself, but until EVENTUALLY comes my life is like a pageant and I’m standing waiting to see if I will WIN my beauty QUEEN. .. so that name that is called is NOT MINE… what will happen?
OH DAMN, too late… There’s only one Lady that can resuscitate me! Where is SHE?
SHE deserves Me DAMN IT!
SHE deserves to be at PEACE!
SHE deserves to smile, and it be because SHE is FULLY HAPPY with herself then ME!
SHE needs to be held!
SHE deserves… to have NO WORRIES
SHE… but where is SHE?
NOT WITH ME… DAMN!!!
I LOVE HER… I NEED HER AS MUCH AS SHE NEED/WANT ME. .. PULSE … P.U.L.S.E…. GONE!
I DON’T ASK FOR MUCH GOD, I SETTLE BUT I JUST GOTTA LIVE SO I CAN GET HER… soooo I’LL keep LOVING HER… KISSING HER FOR AS LONG AS SHE ALLOWS ME TO.
(2014)