Cherryvanilla
Back after such a long long time!! Things really do change!!
Back after such a long long time!! Things really do change!!
Please don't expect good grammar, academic ability etc etc. school was a no go but...there always is one...my writings are as and when, easy, with words everyone understands...else...what's the point right?! ....in hindsight...maybe the point is "if I don't understand, I could try?!" but will I ...
I'm no Bukowski...but the fact that I know of and Love his guts/writing/rebellion says it all. School....overrated
"if you don't want your book to be judged by its cover...should you really write one?"
Questions always gratefully received, my answers might not be"
Music/book/film fiend...for fun!
"it's just a ride" *Bill Hicks
ABOVE ALL ELSE...MY LITERARY HERO..."The edge, there is no honest what to explain it because the only people who really know where it is are the ones that have gone over" *Hunter. S. Thompson
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